"I'm changing for my own good. And, nth have made me want to change or whatever. But i'm juz saying out what i've been keeping inside for a long time already. Oh my god, how am i going to survive my another 3 years in Cedar with peeps especially lyk Nada etc. I dunno y innocent peeps (1) lyk Nada wants me to get a lyf. But! BUT! In actual fact, she is the one whu needs to get a lyf. Nada, a person whu likes to call peeps names such as 'Freak', 'Idiot' etc., is actually the want whu needs an attitude adjustment. She is the one whu is an 'Idiot', 'Freak' etc...but she calls those names to other peeps becoz she doesn't want to admit that is the one whu is the idiotic freak etc. I told her off many times (2) but she thinks i'm so tooottoot or whatever. Well, i might as well not say anymore (3). It juz makes my heart aches (4). So, in conclusion, Nada get a lyf (5) and attitude adjustment (6). Think whu u realli want to be (7). And dun follow what the trackers are (8). Realli, Nada, u might think i'm juz a crap (9) but u might realise in the future (10) what i'm saying all this is true (11)."

-an excerpt from d afiqah's blog.

  (1) innocent? oh realli? thx fer da compliment. *smilex*
  (2) ehx.. since when u tell mie off?
  (3) rite. don't. cuz i don wana listen to your stupid crap
  (4) it duz? y sucha great impact on you?
  (5) i already have one thanx.
  (6) it's already adjusted (to my likes of course)
  (7) i wana b wad i wana b.
  (8) i dun follow. i'm part of it. i'm wad we are. n we rock?!?!
  (9) i neva called u crap. u called urself it. *innocence*
(10) future? rite. in mebe a million yrs in future. uh-huh. *understood*
(11) true? it ain't true.

afiqah is such a loser ok i tell u. lyk damn funnie lei.. *laughs helplessly* back down dere in my 1st entry u noe i blogged about her rite? den she read my blog lar. den she make new blog. u can visit it under my links. d name's "fucka". rite. den she sae i call her freak n idiot coz i dun wana admit dat im actualli da one. lyk hello? hus da copycat? hurms. u neva new abt roxy anyway. i tell u my sis is a million times better than even your biggest bra ok? ur juz lyk murny or wadeva her friggin' name-o is. so kental sia! wif one small bunch of fringe? izzat a fringe? no la. actualli juz part of de hair she let down one wad. u n roxy juz don go together cuz roxy's fer rockin' pple n u ain't one baby. oops. ur gona b religious n all so i doubt ur gona wear roxy bix n stuff ritex?

juz a few days back b4 sch closed.. i rmb vividly. after d msn incident.. *sigh* she actually toked to mie la. but i din' realli want her to. till she read d 1st blog abt her. dat shows dat she needs to be told dat pple dun lyk her den she will not tok to that person. such an ass cum loser cum fucka. n anyway she calls mie peeps. lyk i wuld eva wana b her peep. i, as of wadever d time is now, have got nothing to do wif her at all 'cept fer enemity. yarpyarp. i ain't need an attitude adjustment. coz i dun wana adopt decency n religiousness as part of mylife. i know my limits in religion. tho i may not seem to care i do. its juz that i dun go overly super. decency? hurms. i know my limits of dressing. i dun go overboard wif stuff dat will show my boobs coz i ain't dose sex symbol kinda pple.

so.. a pice of my mind fer ya.. u suck!

booh! ydae wuz lyk sooo funn! sis go sch fer lessons. den she cum baq den go citilink mall wif mummie n sis. mum bot sis a pink gallaz sk8 shu fer her bdae. budd she sooo nice get mie ripcurlgirl wallet. maroon. thx mum! muax! luv ya!!! den met sam+val+malina dere. walau! dat malina ar! dono how she duz it but she can stand trng?!?!?!? i wan go budd dono if can tahan anot. l8er halfway i run den die how? choi ar! *touch wood* den go granma hse to break fast. wuz lyk damn full lor. granma owaex coox up a storm fer evry meal ok?

shit lah! got tuition at 4 l8er. lyk hols readix lor. mum wans us to start earlie so nxt yr wun b bloody far bhind. yarp.. n i carn blieve some pple realli listen intently to ms leong n actualli do deir reflections fer d yr ok? i cant even b bloody hell bothered to do sucha thing. deres nth to reflect abt cuz i dun giv a bloody shit abt dis yr. lets c.. so manie pple hav gotten onto my nerve dis yr.. mebe nxt entry will make a list abt d pple dat get onto my nerves. yupyup.. budd till nxt tym... byez! muax!

harloeeex! so many days nvr go online readi! 've been skippin' so many trngs cuz of fasting. den lyk evritym c dis malina still go trng. boo! mie keep having stomach aches since last wednesday lo. when it hurts.. i hurts till i cannot tahan nimorex. budd i pray n pray dat i'll get betta n d pain goez away... fer lyk a while.. hahah! den it cumz baq n i juz sleep it off. tummys prob started shrinking readi coz now lyk break fast oso cannot eat alot. will juz puke if i eat d normal amount. bluekbluek! tink mie will kena kick out fm track cuz will b skippin trng fer lyk a mth lor. unless he realli has a heart. so if u do.. prove it man!

got baq rpt bk on fri. mie clas pos improve by lyk 2. budd level go down by 1. clas got 31! level got 279. don wana fret abt it. mie+baoyue+pandora made a vow dat we wil study dis hols so dat nxt yr.. we wun b lacking behind d rez of d clas. lyk my clas pple lyk so smart lor! y? but d qs is? will i realli werk hard nxt yr. i've never even given a thot abt wad im gona do in sec3. coz i dono. i dun even have an ambition cuz i realli dono wad i wuld lyk ta b. but... "life goes on" - leann rimes. yarpz..

went to my kuzzies office thrift shop sale at d scwo. got lyk so many books to read durg d hols. got d "shopaholic aboad" fer lyk a dollar?! it actually costs at least 20bux! hahah! got lyk qt a lot of stuff. yeah! got a polo ralph lauren denim short skirt. vry nice lor! whee.. so mebe today will juz stae at home.. laze ard.. wutch tv.. mebe go ard tm n cs. lyk 3 mins awae frm home! hahah! budd im realli gettin bored of tm n cs. hahah..

so.. toodles!

lalala... booh! im so happie i tink i can flyieee... *shrieks* at home now.. neh go sch!!! whee.. hurms.. 3 days left in sec 1. 3 days to hols. 3 days to liberation frm cedar n da pple dat make mie freakin pissed!!! byebyebye. lyk sec 2 is cumin nearer n nearer.. aaahhh! well.. juz haf ta face up 2 reality ritex? at least nxt yr can b considered as seniors to de sec 1 lot down dere.. heheh! *grinx* k larx.. dat sister of mine nagnagnag lyk sum ol' hag. till l8er.. booh!!! tk care..

shucks!!! gez wat? i over slept!!!! damn it larx!!!! die lo!!!!! wad 2 do!!!!! shitzzzzz!!!! okok.. i decided to go fer trng ydae after rica asked mie to. set my alarm clock to 6.00. n gez wad tym i woke up?!!! 9.00!!! by d tym i shower, change wuld b lyk 9+. n to go dere i muz take cab cuz i dono how to go frm my hse. lyk take cab reach prob ard 10+ liddat!!! by den dey all prob finish readix!!! shitx!!! how?!!?!?!?! n lyk fasting mth gona start soon lo. so how 2 make up for lost trngs? when i start trng again, i prob slack lyk hell until b4 i noe it he'll prob kick mie out. lyk damn!!!!! im juz so pissed at my self!!! damn it!! midas well quit b4 i get humiliated n kena kick out of track! to hell wif it manx!
im juz so FREAKIN PISSED!!!!

as d title sez it all. so guai. got an A fer cme grade. n very good for conduct. yipeyz!!! had B n good laz sem. remarks not veri positive lor. rite dat i can do much better. must have better organizational n time management skills. muz devote my time to studying n working. k lorx. will try to coz i wana buck up. i've had enuf of pple boasting to mie. wad crap!!!

todae was lyk a freakin shit dae. so morn assembly hadta sing d nat anthem lyk thrice cuz dat msleong say we wernt louuud enuf. lyk duh! evri1s half asleep!!! zzz.. den sing again. n again. lyk wadda hell?! luckie nvr make us sing sch song again. boo! hahaz!!!

den.. checked de marks for report bk.. passed all overall. had 3 Cs. d rez all Bs. qt pleased wif myself tho. at least nvr fail niting. *smilex* C wuz d&t. lit. malay. lucky pass my malay!!! heng arrr!!! had onlie one underline in my report. under ca2. malay!!! 41.0. luckie got enuf for sa to pull up!!! *grins* thx cikgu! heheh.. den chew came to tok bout dnt?!?!?! bored. perfectly bored. love boredom. lucky got dat crime prevention thingee. or else i wuld prob have screamed when chew wuz tokin sayin dat he shud let us do watever we want n dun tok readix!!! so dat jacelyn tay came.. ya.. so blabla la.. den had recess. mie + mich + diana wenta collect d yrbk den came late fer d PAL thing. was anihow grped lorx! mie n mich were in yani's grp wif mildred, mag, fung n kailing. den mie n mich not happie sit dere blackblack face one. yani oso pull long face! lyk shes da leader lor. so mie mich carm n wenting form our grp. making yanti our leader cuz she was d onli nice pal leader frm my class. if afiqah was dere she wuld prob have been hatin mie cuz she duznt lyk ma att. cuz i owaex tok baq 2 her. lucky her la. ya.. den happie onli when we forem own grp. *grinx*

k la.. byex!

aaaarrrrgggghhhhh!!!!! i wana die readix la! i dun have any stamina left. zero. none. zilch. nada. not at all.. cant even run d stupid thing durg trng lorx. shudda gone fer bball instead. but aiyah... i reallie confused wif dis track vs bball thing. i dono what i wan ta do!!! sumbodie! help mie! pleeeze! ya.. so tay said we'll b doin 3km but d route was actuallie 2.5km. 2.5 my ass ar! i felt lyk so super duper hyper long ok?! lost my momentum n pace when i almost fell. wuz pushing mieself den nvr c d stupid stone dere. was lyk wheeps! almost fell. luckie nvr ar! den was lyk so horrible lor i run. so manie pp overtake mie. den lyk got a damn 2nd last lor. so dead la. bball had interval trng juz now. poor dem. jog den sprint den jog den sprint. haish! weds got trng again. both! bball n track!!! which one? so damn long nvr go bball trng oredix lor! track will b doin long d again. bball dono. den sat got 8km run at mac ritchie!!! 8k!!!!! wtf?!?!?! how m i suppose ta run?!?! pancit first ar!!! sheesh! sure get last one lor. i tink i got more potential in bball lor. track! got so manie pp better den mie lorx.  aaaahhhh! deadie meatie!

SHE got onto my nerves again lor. lyk in malay class i rdg my totp mag wif yanti n yani. den she keep wanting to c oso lor. den got dis pic den she wan c den she pull d mag away. i snatched it back. damn thick skin lor. noe pple dun lyk her oredy still wan 2 read. juz fuck outta my lyf can? izit too hard a task for ya to do?